Escaping Reality

Salam :)

One of the book that I can relate most to my life is Rachel's Holiday. Rachel the main character as the title suggest is living in denial, she is highly dependent on drugs and no, it is not drug that I thought is the similarity between us. It was the living in denial one.

There are few biggest shock that I had in my life, first one is the UPSR result, second is being suspended from school and a few that came after.

Often times, when I am at the moment I want to skip through, I always put myself at the other place. During my lower form, I always escape my class especially Malay and Arabic class, because I don't like the subjects and most of the time spent was behind the toilet, and I study by my own there. I escape the class, because I want to be in boarding school but I wasn't selected, and I escaped the reality by being alone behind that toilet, surau, in Kemahiran Hidup lab or in abandoned room in hostel area while other student were having preparation class. I was quite rebellious by then.

Besides, I always thought sleeping will help me to forget things. It helps at first, but later I was getting bored. Frustrated maybe sounds better. I thought after I woke up from my long sleep, the dream that I dreamt is my new reality. But it wasn't. I felt so stupid. I was again, escaping reality.

Rachel, in the book escaped her reality by doing drugs and it was hard to convinced her that she is in denial.

Living through reality was hard. Sometimes people choose to spend money to forget the sadness, sometimes people go around having fun everytime to make them tired and have nothing to think before sleep, sometimes people do everything crazy just to distract their mind or anything but not facing them.

But upon facing sadness, the most important bits is to go through the sadness, feel every moment and face it with strongest will that we have. It was not until this I realize God is always there for me. The time alone is the best moment to reflect on our life and what will we become during hereafter.

So don't escape the moment in life.

This is me, with some skin problem that made me down and taught me a lot on how one's self esteem related to face. I avoid being in the public because of this, because I will ruin the picture of many.

I remove the picture, you are late.