Wheelchair

Salam.

Last week, I was in Miri. Visiting friends and attending a wedding. Miri is a place that suits my soul. It was peace and calm, which caused me to sleep always. Hehe. And Aida is a very good host, she cook and guiding our tour, help me to fulfill my Miri-to-do(eat)-list. Thanks babe! :B

After 6 months working, I received my confirmation letter. Happy gila though I know this is not a big deal to you. Hehe

My grandfather is sick. Mild stroke and he now can't walk, he can't eat any solid food and the worst to see is he had this tube of wire, which the wire is sticked to the nose and food (milk) goes to the system through the nasal passages.

It was hard to see someone so strong laying so helpless.

One wheelchair in the house, both my grandfather and my grandmother need it. They are really growing old together. It was bittersweet moment to think of.

Eh I shouldn't sadden you guys with this post.

Have a happy weekend! :)

Heave and Pitch

Salam.

Along was back to work last November. On his last day during the stay, my sister and me tag along him on one of his series of shopping, and we end up in this one store, Along wanted to buy a 'bag-to-work' for himself (you now may relate where the naming of every purchase is coming from). So yeah, he was prancing the bag and my sister and me being good consultant, criss-crossing every Along's pick.

And suddenly Along said, 'You can pick the purse if you want. Only one each'. (Okay I better mention this, my sister was the one who went like 'Can you buy me a purse, mine is torn already, I sometimes avoid showing my purse to others, they'll make fun of it. Poor me).

I ignored her, of course. Hahaha. But Along unfortunately bought by the words and suddenly my purse is no longer grey, it is now red. (I am so happy because I hate my last purse, the letter print is too big, I sometimes avoid showing my purse to others, they'll make fun of it. Poor me).

So yeah, may all of us blessed with generous people around.Hehe

Bye and take care people.

Not a Good News to Start with.

Salam.

So I was again, committed the same mistake. I learned now that if we are dealing something serious in a stern condition, please avoid communicating via virtual means. Get the communication as human as possible. Worst is through phone call, and best is meeting each other face to face.

As everybody knows that woman is driven by emotion and man guarded by their ego, so deciding isn't best if the communication doesn't conveyed the meaning.

So don't argue virtually, argue on their face, like a man.

Bye bye.

Wrap

Salam.

Rose and me are in a hall now, listening to HSE talk. A moment ago, a victim from fire incident of a platform somewhere at Terengganu offshore (Bekok C) shared his story. I, at most of the time didn't listen because there are too much thinking in my mind. He wears headphone, everytime, not because he listening to music, but because to hold his glasses. His ear no longer can hold the glasses. His hand was wrapped up until elbow and his face too, wrapped at the beard area. Imagine how many strange gaze he has to face everyday.

This risky job sure pays lot of money. But surely no job is worth a life.

Please be careful in everything you do.

Macabre

Salam.

One of many things that I most fragile at is my self esteem. I was always played safe and hardly  take challenge upon afraid that it will rip myself apart. So today is one of the day when I complain too much, why I am not blessed with lean figure, why I erm too many things that I don't want to recall. Things went slight off today which trigger all the negatives hype and wallowing in self pity is the last that I want to do when my sense is still around.

So let's pray tomorrow will shine brighhter. I believe in tomorrow, and don't want to live in the past.

Whooping

Can you read this? :)

Green Tea is Good not for Tastebud

Salam.

I am going to have dinner with other 3 girls. The theme for this dinner is white, but I might betray their theme as I couldn't really find a nice white shirt that look nice on me. I am sorry, in advance. Hehe

Or maybe I will be wearing white. Maybe.

My aim for tomorrow is wardrobe overhaul and I want to finish my series or reading. I don't want to sleep. I have been sleeping for everyday on weekdays and I thought I want to do something different on weekends. God, please make me able to resist bed's temptation. Slumberland, please allow me to excuse myself, I am going to visit you not more than 8 hours a day. I thought my visit of 8 hours would be enough.

On politics, I think there are good in having opponents, voice of minority and all. Because without that, the ruling party would be too comfortable and passive. And my say for ruling party is, please don't waste our belief in you. For both ruling and opponent party, please fight in showing the citizen the betterment that you can bring to us, not pointing out the drawbacks of others. Isn't it good to be inspired by your opponent rather than being envious? After all, we are all fighting for the same thing. Food.

Cartoon googled.

Bye bye and take care people.

Second Kind

Salam.

A lot has happened. Some of them were good, some were half as good and most of bad things happened just so I will be tougher for the second time.

The second kind of stupid person in the world is a girl/boy who is already has partner and yet, still flirting with partner of others. This people is totally clueless on what love is, that is the reason behind. Until karma comes, they will always think there is nothing wrong with flirting with others' partner. On top of not being honest towards their own gf/bf, they choose to be relationship-wrecker and will only satisfied when the other girl crying. Well, this is second kind of stupidity.

The first kind is people who is lazy.

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This is totally crap.

Colors Blend

Salam.

Sometimes, I snap pics here and there.

Weather Made Me Wrote this...

Salam.

I write this on the basis that my sister didn't read my blog (even after I forced her).

My sister and me are just like any other sisters, there are ups and downs, series of argument (that I won of course) and many more not good things in between. I started to feel grateful to have her as my younger sister when my teenagers hormone extinct. It is not that I wasn't before, I was but now I think the feels are accentuated.

We need not to talk to feel the comfortable. Sometimes, having her in radius of my eyesight if enough.

I miss putting my head on her back while she is lying on her stomach playing around with her laptop.

She is gadget savvy, a bit of apple freak and much better in religious conscious than me, much more positive than me, and have a lot of friends that appreciate her.

On her 17th birthday, I made a bet with her that if she receive more than 60 birthday wishes via text, I will treat her her favourite cake. ( because by any means there is no way someone was not popular in school deserved to receive wishes that many- or so I thought). Guess what? I  am totally wrong. She even received much greater number than 60.

I don't know laa why I wrote this.

I feel old suddenly. Hahaha

Bye and happy new year. May we become a better person everyday.

Right or Happy?

Salam :)


One of the greatest thing that happened to me, is having friends that always remind me to become obedient to Allah. Because, these days that kind of friends is hard to find.

I am blessed :)

Of Everything that Happened.

Salam.

 Last weekend friends and me were in PD. We spent one awesome night there and end our holiday with massage. What happened in that 4 walls is better remain untold. Hahaha.

In PD, we were also indulge ourselves with good food, Ice Room, Tom Yam at a restaurant called Nasreen is to die for :)

Today and 4 days onwards, I will be having netball practice, too bad the practice is not in tower. But the good part is, I get to learn on other place in KL apart from office and shopping mall. Hehe

Seriously the practice is no joke. I have been called 'Stupid', 'Lembik', 'Lembap' and many more I felt wounded to divulge here. Hahaha. But it is okay. Even a manager was scolded by coach, who are me the little fry to complain?

So I hope we will win for our game this weekends. Hope being called 'Bodoh' worth some sweet memory for us. Oh please don't take me wrong, the coach Kak Z is one nice lady.

So hope you guys enjoy your weekend as well. Bye and take care people.

Cookies and Me

Salam.

I was in the convenient shop, staring this one pack of cookies, contemplating either to buy or not to buy. I read the ingredient, just want to have some written evidence on what good does this food bring to me except the fat and sugar. I found nothing (because I am on diet, blame the fat from the meat! Grr). But just then magic happened, while I was putting the pack of cookies back onto the shelf, that pack fall on the floor. I can hear some of the biscuit in the wrapper were already broken or cracked, so out of responsibility, I have to buy this cookies. Well, haven't you heard, once broken, consider sold? Hehe

Bye bye and take care people! ;)

Just in Time

Salam.

Today started a bit slow, my heart aching to fake a mc but my mind was wiser, so I end up at office.

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On putting things at the right place and right time, I think I learned a bit on this topic recentIy.

I had a I-thought-going-nowhere-conversation with a younger boy who is really close to me. Jokingly, upon knowing the fact that all people surrounding him were upgrading themselves with Iphone, I asked him, when he is going to buy one?

So he answered, 'I am a student, student don't really need a smart phone. People at your age is required to have smart phone because your job demand, I am okay without'.

So I felt a pang of ashtonishment then and there. And sheepishly, tried to divert the conversation towards a better direction. (Or so I thought)

Second, my elder brother asked me to no longer take bus for balik kampung during raya, (read: flight) and also bought the ticket for my younger sister too. I was neither agree nor disagree by then.

So on one fine day, I told father about this. And Abah reaction was, ' It is okay for you to no longer take bus, but for Adik, just let her enjoy her ride on the bus. She is a student, and student should learn, about almost everything'.

I was happy, not because father's words save me a few hundreds but because err I can't think of better reasoning than this at the moment. Hehe

So I came out with a conclusion that it is really okay to live a life just as it is, no rush, gush or push.

So that's all. Bye and take care people.

P/s : Tapi janganlah jadi cool sangat sampai hidup tak ada progress langsung :)

Remote

Salam.

October, 2011.

I was on the way to home, in a bus some time in 2009. I was alone and the seat beside me was unfortunately not vacant, occupied by a boy. Having no option, I took my seat and set my gaze to the window, so that this boy would understand that I was in no mood to talk, especially to stranger.

After a while, maybe he was bored to death, or even better, maybe he found me a person who is interesting to talk to, the silence between us was broken by his question. Not a pick up line obviously because he was still in school, I reckon he was 16. ( In case if you forgot, I am 17, at heart ;).

After a little too many questions, I reached my destination. Our conversation was mainly on my education, school, study and teachers. This boy remind me so much of my little brother, and my heart was quite shaken by his bluntness by then. He basically ask me on tips to study well in school, and admitting the existence of ego in me, I preach about every little thing geek do in school, which I was obviously not but somehow I talked like I was one. Hehe

I know I looked like a quite quiet person, but I am a person that make conversation with stranger in bus.

Here in KL, I know if I were to start a conversation in train, my face would easily printed with L sign right straight on my head. Plus, with series of crime cases related to this kind of contact, I am a bit traumatize. ;/

Bye and take care people. :)

Stones

Salam.

I was late in buying raya ticket, again. I thought I won't manage to celebrate raya with beloved family, but fortunately, with the might-of-anything-possible, I am going to celebrate raya with family. Father was busy reminding me to buy the ticket last Friday, so off we go to buy the ticket today. I am blessed to have such a thoughtful father.

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One of the thing I obssess with is bracelet. But not any kind of bracelet, more like bangle I think, just this one kind that, erm let me google the picture to help me explain better. Hehe

Image is from here.

But seriously, this bangle is too pricey. I thought after years of telling tales to mother that jade and me are like Romeo and Juliet, Edward and Bella or Mahathir and Hasmah, mother will finally get the hint  and buy me a piece of this. But...

The hunt for perfect one is not yet end, reason being is because this green thingy consume big chunk of money. So for now, I will just settle with a string of pink stones that came with more humble price. (I ask the sales girl, this stone is good for what? And the girl said that this stone is for love. See? I am pretty sure this blog is soon to be flooded with cheesier stuff :) ).

Take care and have a good day ahead everyone.

Fishing, lets?

Salam.

Happy Diwali everyone :)

We just spend our one day off at home. It is quite sometime I didn't read something inspiring and beneficial, my favourite blogger TheKnot and This and
That didn't blog too frequent these days.

Life has been somehow fun, however, I heard about a few break up my friends had pass through. I know at first, you will be too dependent with tissues and loo. But, no worries. That is really normal. But, don't take too long dwelling in self pity. I was before, and what I manage to develop is shabbiness and missing lots of fun.

Looking into bigger picture, break up is good, in a way it teach me how to deal life alone and stand strong on our own feet. Being in a relationship for too long may make you forget some of the things you are capable of. And plus, when we are occupied, we don't really have time to remember Allah. Fill the hollow in your heart by zikrullah. It is really helpful.

One more thing, remember, chin up and look straight. There are wide vast open sea in front of you. Just watch out ;)

Umbrella in Pink

Salam.

Currently I am listening to this.

The wordings are so beautiful, I dedicate this song to all my friends. I have been meaning to say something cheesier, but pardon me, I can't. I am almost puke. Hehe. Oh wait, I have this chocolate stain at my fingers, need to wash em first.

Okay I'm back. :)

So hows your weekends? Mine is alhamdulillah, okay.
You see, when we are passing through our phase of life, when we are getting higher through the ladder, it is true that things are getting tougher, and for me, I am very very bad in maintaining relationship with girlfriend. I didn't nourish them well. Worsen the condition, basically a bad person, I just let them drifted apart. And at the end of the day, seeing their pictures spread on the net hanging out and chilling without me, I am biting my nail, envious.

So to make my swollen heart feel better, I am whispering to myself that I am homey person, being at home doing laundry and sweeping the floor is much better. I am in denial, again.

But no worries folks, I am working on this. (first attempt, post up this video  and dedicate to friends, isn't it obvious?) Hehe

By the way, feel free to be flattered, I am seriously missing you :)

Soonest, when?

Salam.

Except from my 14 followers, I don't know who else reading this piece of mine. I thought I would want to divulge some personal matters here, I don't know I just feel like I cannot contain this all alone.

Erm, so convo passed, and now I am living my life  like usual. I have been keeping all this to myself and now, specifically tonight I don't feel like I am strong enough. Maybe because of the rain, maybe because tomorrow is Friday, maybe because I am alone now and don't feel like doing anything. I don't know.

I am hoping for something big, which if I manage to obtain this, my life would be deviated from its original plan, threehundredsixty degree. I know there will be argument and all, but I don't know, for this time I just felt like I am up for this.

I am planning to at least be dear to everyone and being open about this, truth is I can't. Plus, I don't know, it is not like this thing matters much. ;/

Bye bye and hope to feel better tomorrow.

Robe Edition

The Big Book

Salam.

40 years later, when reaching for a cup is no longer as easy as now, I know slowly I will forget about this day specifically that I can play around with robes and all, so this post is dedicated for me, the old me.

I am blessed to be given a chance studying in UTP.

I guess I have to make a move now. Work work work.

Salam.

I admit that I was not aware before, that you are always close to me. In this event, proven and I promise I will never act like before, neglecting you and forgetting you.

Re-post

- I was emo, and re- read this make me laugh. Haha

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Salam.

So the story went on something like this. A guy convinced me that I am not pretty. I was quite astonished by then. (Pretty or not, it is a fact that quite awkward to be discussed and throw right into your face, no?- and of course that is a fact that I am fully aware and need not to be reminded).

Not long after that, a girl come to justify that I am no longer pretty, I was pretty and now I am wasted.

Then talk goes on like now I am no longer cheerful, my company wasn't as great and I needed no longer in any occasion.

People change and I change. I thank you those who stays around with my transformation and those who bluntly throws comment.

I, as positive as I could will appreciate everything that came into my life. But a heart and matters involving it, is quite too complicated to be put into sentences. It is quite untrue to declare virtually about forgiving thingy when deep down inside, absolute grudge hidden.

May all of us learned, talk less and think more.

I am contented with everything for now.

On the positive note, I will be at home in less than a hour! What my house and room will look like? I've been hopping here and there, not really have time to miss home and now, I am deeply believe the sentence 'I am going home' alone bring some positive vibes.

Happy Ramadhan all beautiful :)

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Sweetest Goodbye

Every day, when I was in school 5 or 6 years back, we have break around 45 minutes before start our prep, so I without fail, will climb back to hostel just to listen to Songs About Jane especially this Sweetest Goodbye. MP3 is quite foreign by that time, we have this bulky thingy called discman, if you can recall.
Hehe.

Bye :)

Peacock

Salam.

On what in my mind :

I sketch this. I am bluffing. Googled of course.

• I like to make friends, but didn't really shown on my face. I am poker face. I maybe quite quiet in a crowd, but I participate in the conversation. Well you can't have two storytellers at a time, there must be a party that listen. (Me!)

• It is very hard for me to listen to others' opinion. Hahaha. Not a good thing, really. More like annoying Anis. (Working on it)

• I have sensitive skin, but quite happy with the supplement I consume for now, monetary-wise especially.(But please don't expect me being flawless, flawed is a sign of real human- me in denial obviously)

• As time passed by, I talk lesser and lesser. That is why being with me make you bored to death (Oh at this point, please tell me I am one interesting girl you would like to spend time with...*eyes batting)

• I have this one question I can't really answer, on what I fear most... Still thinking and none seems like the correct answer. 

• I am agree with Tun M, enough playing mystical play. Our kid gain nothing from it. What a waste.

• I don't know how others treat this coming convocation, but I am very excited. Woohoo. I will try to attend every single thing they organized and participate, this is one moment in my life that will never happen again :) On what I wear? Smile on my face.

•  Mother is now quite busy, she no longer sulks when I forgot to call her. Pretty much occupied with her workload I guess. So today, I texted Mother to bug her and as usual whatever she replied will end with this --> !!!! It has been some time I tried to tell mother that that sign means shout, but to no avail. 

 I forgot to say bye bye.

Bye and take care peeps!

Of Lazy and Ignorance

Salam.

(The post written below is a bit harsh, I  wrote this last night, dawn to be exact, and kept it as draft when I re-read it in the morning because I thought those who read might be pissed or so. But I thought, again,who am I kidding, this is my blog- a most dear place to vent :)

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Googled.

On the things that frustrating me most now, is lacking of interest in knowing current issues and gaining knowledge. I don't know what Malaysia would become if people at my age is talking games and fashion at all times.

And who I'm worry most, is me. I used to read everything everyday, and now I just constantly used 'I am too busy to know this' reason and yeah, refuse to know what is going up. It is not about reading that I concern here, but the current news and anything that will make me stay rooted to my country is.

I am feeling patriotic, this all of sudden because I just watch a video about my fourth prime minister, and cannot help from feeling the lost even when he is still around.

I just want him, or at the very least, a man as brave as him to fight for the country. This is too, not about politic, but to plant some motivation for those who need it. Some people may just save the effort to have insight about constructive info at some later time, and left in the status of not knowing everything because of feeling too young to know things - at loss. The ignorance is irrelevant anymore.

Another drawback is when people thought they were really know things, they tried to plant the ideas in someone mind without leaving the other person some consideration to think, let alone some room for discussion. Which is annoying and unhealthy.

Too young for this.
Ignorance is a bliss.
Too lazy to think.
This is obliged not for me, to others. I will forever become a parasit that contribute nothing and for forever, is the receiving hands.

Lets at least contribute something, and as a baby step, read and learn.

Went Kaput

Salam.

Today a lot of things had happened, at all stage. In the morning, I was beyond the lowest point because of work stress, at noon I called a bf that care to listen and feel relief after that, and at evening doing work and work and later  have a nice conversation with superior that give me pang of realization and at night, watching movie with one of other bf.The movie is Dream House and all I can say is Rachel the Lux girl is really pretty.

One of many thing that I gathered for today is-let me give you an analogy (or two! Hehe)

Let say I am hired as a clerk, with pay of RM1.5k per month and working hour agreed is from 8am-5pm. So Anis the clerk goes to work each and every day without fail and gleely happy at month end because of payslip. But Anis the Clerk didn't felt that amount is suffice. She thought she needs more. There are a lot more to pay (and to purchase mind you) and on top of feeling not enough because of so-so salary, she been robbed and started to feeling angry to God. How can she continue to live until the next payday?

First, the idea that instilled to me just now is, there are many people who comes to work diligently every day, but were they really come to work? Or chatting, or as mundane activity, or as a fashion stage or just to appear in office and make others aware of our presence so we won't be questioned by boss if absent?

As agreed, we are hired to work from 8-5, so the contentment won't come if we don't work as we promised. The wage that we received every month will be questioned later, and as a matter of fact, I believe the feeling of not enough is coming from this, receiving money that is not for what we were delivering.

So I've been reminded (in a good way) by my superior to take a really good care on amount of work that I commit and the time I spent to do real work, because I had promised so and promises shall not be broken. Plus, the money is for buying my food. The consequences on the quality of my work not only affect me, but others, and in long term too.

So in conclusion, let ask ourselves whether we deserved the money each month?

Lets be rajin as bee :) - Image googled

Second, when Anis the Clerk been robbed, Anis the Clerk felt life is unfair, injustice and why among all many well-off people out there, God chose her to be robbed. All she can do is questioning why and why and why and knowing Anis the Clerk, perhaps quick idea on what color of new handbag she should buy to replace her stolen handbag.

The thing is, everything happen for reason. In our awarded rezeki, there are portion of others in it. Should we allocate the money to its right place or people, Insya Allah everything will be okay. So lets do the checklist again, have we share our awarded money with the deserving people or place? (If not, tell me I will text you Anis the Clerk's account number!)

Okay. I think that is all from me. Bye bye and good night everyone. Have a good day ahead and take care! :)

Homey home

 

Salam. 

Homesick.

Finally Finished

Salam.

I finished a 7 km run! Finally.

At first, I was contemplated, to run or not to. An amount of money have been paid, and what matter most is not about the money let alone winning, but we haven't practise at all! Lucky for me, I manage to hit the gym and made peace with treadmill twice or so before the run, but Naddy hasn't. It was a big surprise we manage to finish. Hahaha.

Being a finisher is our only aim. Marathon is too far to reach, 42 km? *gulp*

After the run, we took our breakfast at Pelita and went home. I changed to proper attire, Kurung to attend father's friend open house. Met with mother and father for about 2 hour before they off to Genting. Mother got some course to attend I believe. I miss mother! We are so distant and spend most of time in phone, arguing.
 
I don't know laa, maybe because mother and me are so similar, we fight-at most of time. We are both 2nd daughter and Aquarius(I am half Pisces, half Aquarius-because some book said Pisces start on 19th Feb, and the other on 20th, so I I am half Pisces half Aquarius hehe).

Our run this morning start at 7.30 am, and guess what? At 7.15 we are still lost! Hahaha. We manage to get in line at 7.27a.m, escaped the warming up session, called mother for blessing, and sharp at 7.30 am, the run started. Lost and me, is normal. I am avid user of gps but to no avail. My gps can't be trusted, unlike yours, so please don't blame me. Hehe.

That's all for this week I think. Till we meet again, bye bye and take care. :)

Ps : Tom Cruise I bila pule, boleh run together.hehe

Seed

Salam.

We are what we eat, and what we read. So choose your reading material wisely.

Bye bye.

Calm before the Storm

Salam.

Have you face a situation where you stuck in your own predicament? There is no way you can turn to, because in every way, the blaming finger will point to you. I just can't extricate from this, and I can't tell what is tangling me, and I just had it enough on waiting game. My poor heart, may you be patient for a little bit more.

I am sad, and need noone to notice that. But once in a while, I reached a dead end. And everything burst and become ugly.

I don't know how to amend, pretending sounds like a quick fix. But should I pretend? Isn't pretending a bad thing?

Bright Colors

Salam :)

I am sooooo envy on Syara's camera! I want one. Hahaha

Top from left- Syara, Husna, Weda, Aeda, Rin || Bottom from left - Rose, Dayah and Me.

In case if you have forgotten me, I am purposely post up this picture during Rose' Raya open house so that you will be reminded of me.Hehe

Have I told you that I love to see girls in Kurung and guys in Baju Melayu?
Not only about the costume, but also the joyous air that is around during raya. I can sense that atmosphere, enlighten everybody's mood and perhaps you notice that based on my grin in the picture,the widest one. :B

I am really lacking idea on what to updates. My unattended blog is very dull, I am sorry. I am not much an entertainer. But I will try my best to share beneficial things (at least I thought it will benefit you hahaha).
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"Don't judge each day by the harvest you reap, but by the seeds you plant."

Robert Louis Stevenson

"Don't go through life, grow through life."

Eric Butterworth

"Write it on your heart that every day is the best day in the year."

Ralph Waldo Emerson

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I just copy paste what Arina mailed to me, and take your pick on the quote to brighten your day. Till then, bye bye. :)

Giggling

Salam.

Pic  googled-of course.

Adam Levine maybe way hotter, but I am not quite fascinated by hotness- I prefer cool, and thats maybe the only reason Chris Martin is always the best.

Yours truly,
Some-maniac-fan.

Life of the Party

Salam.

After a long while not meeting each other, yesterday we manage to held a small gathering. Bukan gathering sangat pun, just small number of us. Everyone is basically chatty, it is hard to find civilianz girl who doesn't. Hahaha.

Shall update you with pictures once I manage to get my hand on laptop.

Tata and take care :)

Thick and Thin

Salam.

Hahaha. I don't know why among of too many words, Rose choose Kerepek Tiram. Hahaha

I think all of you got what Rose meant to convey. Of course you'll understand, all of you are smart. We can never underestimate others opinion and decision, we never knew what others capable of, so please just give positive drive to people surrounding and pray for the best, to all.

And life is now too good to be true. I can see I am moving towards my destination and of course foresee some hurdles all the way, but enough to know that is for no other than making my life more interesting and victory taste sweeter.

Erm, it is weird to compliment someone in this virtual space. So not me. Anyways, point being is I really really appreciate friends who take time thinking to reply me, especially regarding serious matters. The value of saying something true even the things that you said may put the relationship at stakes, is priceless. Friendship can never stay strong based on lies, or if there are any, lets see for how long the friendship stays. So I thank you those honest people, you put me at where I belong, not higher or lower, just where I should be.

Hail to honesty! Bye bye and take care everyone. :)

Kerepek tiram

Salam.

Hehe its so not me. Later i tell u why. This past few weeks, my life changes. I think i am becoming more happier than bfore. Maybe some of u would not see it, coz di luar i still look he same, i still act the same. But we must accept the fact that, only you, who knows you the best.

Samaada menjadi lebih baik, atau sebaliknya. Kita sndiri yg tahu kite berda di state yg mane. Tapi issuenye, which part of diri kita yg kita nk jadi. Kita boleh pilih nk jd lebih baik, atau kita nk jd yg kurang baik2. Sebenarnye dua2 takde buruknye. Kita xboleh nk jd perfect,baik dlm semua perkara mcm bidadari. Ada baiknye kita jadi yg kurang baik itu dulu, sbb we knew in the end we'll learn bout benda2 yg kurang baik itu, n later on, kita xkan lagi buat bnde yg x baik itu. N kalo kite pikir jadi baik, akn baik selame2nye pon xboleh jgk.....ish to make it simple. Jom buat contoh. Cthnye seorang muslim yg x baik, mnum arak, kaki pompuan, xsemayang. In the end sbananye die akn bosan. Tak Tentu arah mcm tu. Kalo dgn izin Allah, dia diberi hidayah, dipanjangkan umur, lpastu insaf dh terus beraubat. Dosa2 yg die buat dulu2 Allah ampunkan. Xsempat buat jahat lg, meninggal.

Hehe begitulaa.. :P. Haha ape yg aku mengarutkan ni...sory2 korg semua. Ni rose nih. Hee now read again post tu dr ats, n byrkan yg ckp td tu rose, bukan anis... :)

P/s. Tgh mkn kuih tiram yg sdap ni

Outsider Looking In

Salam.

So have you all resorted to the new interface of blogspot? I am fine with the old one, but lets just be uptodate once in a while, so I settled with new interface for today.

Things that need to get done by this month :

• Practise for some secret mission.
• Convo's stuff- room, kurung, (Haven't pay for photographer rupanya, shoes, handbags.)
• Ticket booking to a secret place in December.
• Haircut.
• Shoes for special person.
• Meet up with special kiddo.
• Closet re-haul.
• Scrub.

 I may list all my planning in here because you see, when I stated in previous post that I am declaring war with shopping mall, I won't do any purchase until I settle all payment; my friends who went shopping with me happens to read my blog, and keep reminding me the content of my post. So yeah, somehow this strategy works, I was able to decline major purchase recently. You guys should try too, good luck! :D

Bye bye and take care people! :)

Slump

Salam.

Life is too short, when I heard the news about someone that I knew passed away, I will always shiver, because obviously I am not prepared and death comes without compromise. Looking back on what I have been through, I am indeed lucky because I am born as Islam but when I try to measure back how Islam is me, I felt small, my spirit slump.

When I was at a point where the world is all against me,

I contain my sorrow with entertainment,
I filled my loneliness with salt and sugar,
I satisfied my mind with purchase,
I feed my hunger with distraction

Actually by that time, I didn't know what is the thing that made me felt so and what is the cure of it. Or maybe I know but I just ignore the hint, I refuse to listen. I felt hollow because I ain't done anything fulfill, yet still not doing after experienced. Wasted  my life.

Now at least I know that for everyday we woke up, there is responsibilities for us, responsibility to avoid sinful things, responsibility to study and learn, responsibility to spread Islam, responsibility to remember death is near or coming closer each time.

That Allah may forgive you your sins of the past and the future, and complete His favour on you, and guide you on the straight path (al-Fat-h: 2)

The man who decided to change on the 12th hour dies on the 11th - Hlovate

May you all be blessed.Take care.

Stood in Thought

Salam.

*Image Googled.

I am very not attached to handphone and FB. I don't play games at the handphone and I don't really know how to fully utilize the 'handed down' MP3 by younger sis. Little less I know, I am not really into any technology forward thingy.

Reading, that is activity that will keep me stay fresh best. But I was being too ambitious about reading, and now I have about 4 unread books. I read them halfway, my eyes caught new attractive book at store, read new book halfway, forgot about storyline of unfinished book and saw new attractive book at the store, bought them and that cycle repeat again and again. What a waste, both time and money.

So now I forbid me from buying any new books. I also declared lovelorn to shopping mall. Not me, but my pocket. I had planned a lot of activities for coming months and all that will be fully funded by yours truly, I no longer can beg father for money, so I need to just deny any attraction to shop. Pity me, but don't be. I am growing matured and learn hard way to save and spend money right, and I hope you too will be. :)

 And I appreciate silence too. Silence allow my brain to think.

Have a good day ahead and take care.

Sombre

Salam.

I knew this one boy, from his young age. I still remember, when he was eleven years old, he requested VCD player from his mother if he pass his exam. It was obvious he tried harder this time in order to get his promised VCD player. By the way, will you request for video player at the age of eleven in 1999? I was still a bit too much occupied with doll by that time.

That was then. Now he is aiming for massaging chair. Will you at the age of 23 work hard in order to buy massaging chair? At the age of 23 I repeat. Now seeing that chair in his house, I was quite amazed. He is 20 year ahead of me in planning. I am now, pretty much tangled in between handbags and shoes.

Anyway, how was your raya everyone? Mine is as usual, wicked. Alhamdulillah.

I have this one feeling, that I am getting drifted away from everybody. Of course I am sad. But I think I will be better knowing that this is part and parcel in life. Did you feel the same thing? Or is it just me that is no good in maintaining relationship?

Take care :)

Old Habits Die Hard

Salam.

Everybody in the house were jealous of me. We woke up quite early because mother instruct us to go buy one long list of groceries. And the crowd in the market were too many. I made a promise to not involve with last minute shopping anymore. Oh they were jealous because I sleep the whole day escaping fun of father nagging due to clogged sink. Hehe

I have this one small thought, to be shared, insignificant of course but who knows, might be relevant. :)

We, as Gen Y were dependent to technology and most of our time spent on the net. Me to, certainly is not excluded. I woke up everyday with the first thing to grab is handphone, to check on others' updates.

But, during this Aidilfitri, I thought we should spend more time with real people surrounding us, compared to virtual friends. Appreciate family members in front of us, and don't make them feel unattended and less important.

Hope you will have good times of Aidilfitri, and don't forget to free your hands from yourphone. :)













So please

Uncertainty

Salam.

I sound so gay in previous post. I am not, lets just say 'she' is referring to pet or cats or anything cute.

Tata! :)

Smiling the Smiles of Lovers

Salam.

So she stares at me with those glare, again. There were hope and longiness in her eyes, and I am a real ignorant if I didn't notice that. I don't really know how to react, because I enjoy her attention too. Is that wrong? Of course, it is.

The fact that this is temporary provides me mixed feelings. I am happy this is going to end soon and I no longer need to contain this guilty feeling in my chest. The bad news is, can I be really okay after she left? She is no ordinary. She is reserved, and the only prove is the happy shine in her eyes.

I am sorry, and the least that I can do for us, although there is no 'us' for us, but lets just pray for the best. He listens, and of course come out with the best way to resolve.

Apple is No Longer Green and Red

Salam.

First, if you remember my post about my lil brother force me to buy him watch, after half a year, he now can smile. My Along asked me to buy for him as if that is a special gift for his birthday (last month).

Second, Rose and me was MC-ing an event last night, Iftar with less fortunate kid. I said before, I have that stage fright, but luckilyz no stage involved last night. Hehe

Will heading back to Terengganu tomorrow. I cant wait to have long deep snory sleep. Hehe. Okay, I don't snore, not yet and hopefully never. But I believe as we getting older, snoring will become no longer foreign. So watch out!

Okay, Ramadhan as a giving hands(no longer receiving ends woohoo) for first time hopefully will be okay. What shouldn't be okay anyway, when everybody at home, okay is underrated.Hope you will enjoy and gain full benefit in these last few days of Ramadhan. Bye and take care :)

Adrenaline Rush

Salam.

I was once, thought myself is an outdoor girl and love adrenaline rush so much. One of my biggest dream (in term of money and attainability) is to try out paragliding. What it feels to be flying on the air?

Cool right?


But at the age of 22, I try on roller coaster named Cyclone ( the most evil roller coaster that I know, even that is the only one that I experienced). From beginning till the end I been on that roller coaster, being flipped upside down and shaken and until at one point, I thought my seat's screw is loose and I am going to fall down, I managed to NOT open my eyes and tears streaming down all the way. And inside, reciting any surah that came into my mind as my last preparation in case if my seat is real loose and I am going to fall 30 meter under. That was my first and last. No more no more no more.

Talking about paragliding huh?

So lets just cut off 'Paragliding' from my list-to-do. My body is not fit enough to face that pressure, tested and proven already. Unless, I will be convinced if I fall, the landed area is covered by mattress or sponge or anything that won't harm, I might change my mind. For now, let me just think the other fun to fill in my list-to-do in my life. Joining baking class maybe? Hehe.

Bye bye and take care.

There are Reasons...

Salam.

My friends and me were talking about something mundane, and our topic tilted to more serious one,which is about faith and Islam. As a scarfy lady, I was at one time reach a point where I think I need not to do anything to improve, because I thought I just need to maintain myself as it is.

That was a major, big, fat mistake.

Now, I believe life is more about improving ourselves. Scarfy or not, solat or not, fasting or not, the most important thing is the awareness to improve and be a better person, really. Don't ever feel that we are born this way, and bound to be that way till the end. There is a reason why God give us one more day, breathing and not six-feet under, because we need that day to improve and put ourselves at a better place.

So the keyword here is to improve ourselves and be better person.

There are too many attempts in this blog of mine that shows what I want to be, and I am very sorry to say that I am not really succeeded. This blog and what I wrote, are mostly my wishful thinking.

I don't really know how Ramadhan treats you, but I hope all of you gain full barakah from it.
Tata and take care :)

I am Combination of...

Salam.

Today is Sunday, and I miss being at home on Sunday. Plus I need to submit something tomorrow and my entire body is so tired, I don't know why, so I guess be at home is a real need for me.

Yesterday, I get myself a piece of baju raya, two is enough for this year. Usually mother prepare me 3 pieces of baju kurung for raya, but this year is exception. Mother is no longer buying me baju raya, I need to be independent now. And also need to learn how to save money.

I was wearing flat yesterday, and there was a feeling that I don't really know how to put into words but the thing is, when I wear flats, I don't feel like I am at my real height. I felt shorter and that alone, make me felt uncomfortable to continue on with the day and inside me, shouting for helps to be elevated by my always saviour, wedges. Is this what we called 'lupa daratan?' Hahaha.

I, at most of the time looked higher than my actual height, because I am too comfortable with wedges. Sometimes, when there is occasion when I need to put off my footgear, my friends beside would usually go like this, 'Oh, you are actually short!' hehe

But I am not too comfortable with sky-high wedges. My legs would usually cry for ointment for the night if the height is too high. My comfortable height is only about erm I don't know, I didn't measure them, but medium level I guess.

Now as a career lady ehem ehem, I developed some passion in handbags and shoes, but of course knowing me, I don't splurge on them. Stingy is still inside me, especially towards myself. I am combination of stingy and big spender, if anybody would like me to define myself. So the conclusion is, I am confused which group I do belong.

Happy Ramadhan.

Refresh

Salam.

I was sick last Friday and MC for the day. I lay on the bed and called mother if is it okay if I don't pay my fast because I can't stand being sick, my body need to consume some pills. So mother said okay, and I spent the rest of the day bedridden while rush in and out to the toilet because err I just need too...Something to do with my throat, doctor said there was infection and no wonder after three weeks, the cough is still there.

Dayah, my roomate for now had insist to take me to clinic since beginning, but I as stubborn and cocky as I am, refuse because I believe my body is made of steel and doesn't need prescriptions to heal.

So yeah, after some medicine and meet up with family, everything is gradually okay. Mother said I got infection because my habit of drinking hot drinks, not hot as if hot, but boiling hot. So I guess mother is right. I need to correct the temperature of the drink for a bit and wait until it get warm.

So people, take care. Happy fasting :)

A good example has twice the value of good advice."

I am publishing drafted entry from 2012. This was when I am too sensitive about others' words.

***
Salam.

So the story went on something like this. A guy convinced me that I am not pretty. I was quite astonished by then. (Pretty or not, it is a fact that quite awkward to be discussed and throw right into your face, no?- and of course that is a fact that I am fully aware and need not to be reminded).

Not long after that, a girl come to justify that I am no longer pretty, I was pretty and now I am wasted.

Then talk goes on like now I am no longer cheerful, my company wasn't as great and I needed no longer in any occasion.

People change and I change. I thank you those who stays around with my transformation and those who bluntly throws comment.

I, as positive as I could will appreciate everything that came into my life. But a heart and matters involving it, is quite too complicated to be put into sentences. It is quite untrue to declare virtually about forgiving thingy when deep down inside, absolute grudge hidden.

May all of us learned, talk less and think more.

I am contended with everything for now.

On the positive note, I will be at home in less than a hour! What my house and room will look like? I've been hopping here and there, not really have time to miss home and now, I am deeply believe the sentence 'I am going home' alone bring some positive vibes.

Happy Ramadhan all beautiful souls :)

Growl

Salam.

One thing that I scared most in Ramadhan is my stomach growls too loud, even when I am not fasting, people can still hear and my colleagues now just pretend to understand. It is okay la, as long as I am not in the meeting room.It is still tolerable I guess.

I have fabric for raya already, still hunting the scarf.

They aired good series during this Ramadhan, nice. My favourite is Ramadhan Terakhir, every Tuesday-Thursday played by Esma Danial. But one character that attract me most to keep watching is Mazni. She act very well and her dialogue was hilarious but meaningful. 

Okay, nothing much to elaborate. Happy puasa everyone :)





P/s : By the way, my twitter is anisnadiahosman.hehe

Rainy Days

Salam.

It has been so long, and I know this maybe sounds cliche, but I sometimes miss my campus life. Life was more joyful back then. I went to everywhere at anytime I please, there will be nothing in my way. So this is how my current life teach me on how to appreciate freedom.

Freedom as in I can do what I decide to do and not end up doing things that is left as the only option. Of course, often times I would tell my heart to not focusing on its drawback, but there are also times when I just couldn't stop questioning why.

On tiny bits of life that I learned now is we can't really trust everyone. Of course most of these people is not bad, it is just on many things especially personal one, is not really necessary to be told to everybody. (I used to become so talkative before and trying too hard to make up a conversation from any topic randomly in mind, not really aware on its consequences). And judgment that now is too familiar,of course in office now I need to be careful what topic should I talked about, because networking is important too.

I am actually trying to imply that life is getting tougher and my respect grew bigger to those who nail their life especially this part called work-life balance. Mine one is quite tilted to me, myself and I.

Bye bye and have good days ahead people.

Handbag and Me

Salam.

Father and I enter a bookshop, and father said that 'because you asked me to come here, for whatever book I feel like I want to buy, you have to pay'.

Well, that is one among many kind of 'bully' that they do now. It is okay, buying books is a good investment. You can save the receipt for income tax later. ( The good side of me trying to console me).

Luckily, father said he didn't find any book. Phewww.

***

Nita and me was spending some quality time in a shop after work, browsing through the array of handbags hanging in there and while Nita was tried on a handbag, my eyes caught a very beautiful, black, a bag that able to make you a level prettier ( I thought so, really) with a significant small G (very close to Gucci signature) print on it.

So my hands, both were efficiently lift that bag and with a shrieking voice, excitedly I told Nita, 'try this one, this is too pretty!'

But, a voice came in said, ' Ehhh, this is my bag'.

My body reflected quite fast. I only realize that all of sudden, I was behind a column, hiding from the owner of (a very beautiful handbag, no wonder it is pretty, it is real Gucci ) and the most important thing, hiding to a place where I don't hear anyone laughing.

So girls, please don't hang your handbag or put your handbag at display shelves, especially if your handbag is pretty.

Tata and take care people :)

Ball is Round

Salam.

For the first time, I feel a bit frustrated not getting a chance to watch Malaysia vs Singapore. I hope we will win.

I have twitter now! I know I am far too late, but please do understand better late than never. Hehe

Lime

Salam.

I have a lot entries, in my draft. I think life is getting better now. I am getting matured, I guess so.Hehe.

But one thing that drastically change now is mother is getting more sensitive! I don't know why. But I prefer to hear she nagging rather than knowing she is sulking. My little life is quite empty without her voice shouting. Hahaha.

I am watching Bersamamu now. This time, the guest is a family with a husband that can't walk, having two son that inherit the disease from the father and even worse, one of the son can't talk. But, this father own a workshop. Even he can't walk, still he has the strength to work as normal people. Shame on me that is healthy and yet, still complaining.

Everytime I am about starting to wallow in self-pity, I will always remind myself to remember that out there, there are too many people that want to swap their life with mine, so I have to be grateful in everything. And now as an employee, my brother always remind me that, in our rezeki given by Allah, there is some portion of others in that.I know he wants to make me understand that that I need to give him money, but... from another perspective, what I can think of is we need to always return our gain to those in need. So why not we start now, as Ramadhan is approaching? :)

Bye bye people and take care.

Misjudge

Not so long ago, certain people were so foreign to me. But time flies, and bring us bounded, closer and tight. In each and everyone of these people, lies in them a very beautiful heart, that I never thought would be exist in them because from afar, they don't look like one of those people with noble heart. So again I blame my judgement.So true that people judge and will be judged, but as I welcome more and more people in my life, judgment is a barrier that bring awkwardness in and stop friendship from blooming. Poor me before, fooled by stupid judgement.

I just want to tell that I was wrong for judging people, I regret on my past for unbosomed friendship and I will, see the beauty in every person because that way, life will be elevated in many aspects.

It is good too, sometimes to have a goal to achieve once we are too comfortable in life.

Bye and take care people.

Movies and Me

Salam.

I was watching movie at cinema alone last weekends because I am sick, I don't feel like walking and accompanying my roomate, D and Z shopping and I can't be at home, because I will be alone. So I bought the ticket and while waiting since there were 30 minutes to go before movie start plus I can't bear standing, I have to buy a cup of coffee at this one posh cafe because 1. Nobody is in there and 2.I am alone, I feel like everyone there is watching me. (perasan eh?)

In that cafe, the waiter was so concern (perasan again eh?) towards me (he kept coming offering stuff that I don't want) I can tell because I kept seeing  watch and my face look so sad, tears rolling down (I've told you that when I am sick/having flu, I've got this tears that helping me to look more like a pitiful person, right?). I know I looked like a girlfriend of someone that was waiting for someone to turn up watching movie together but end up that someone didn't turn up, seriously I looked like that.

So when the time come, I went to movie area not knowing where because that was my first time there, but no worries, I reached that movie hall save and sound. The only not good thing was my seat is at F8. F9 & F10 and F6&F7 are pair of lovebirds that were in great effort proving their eternal love to the world (exaggerated) while F1 until F5 is unattended. So I decided to sit at F4 because on top of being pitiful of watching the movie alone, I don't think I can handle sitting in the middle of the lovebirds for 2 hours.

I prayed that nobody will come and claimed their seat, intensely But to no avail. A couple of kids (I think they were 10 or 11 years old) came and of course claimed their seat, which is F3 & F4. I asked them to sit at seat F2&F3 and since they were nice, they agreed to. Now I am partly happy because I looked like a sister bringing two happy boys to watch movie, not like a pitiful girl that have to be at cinema alone. Dread past, now let watch movie gleely, so I thought.

After the movie started about two minutes, again a pair of lovebirds came and claimed their seat at F1 and F2. So now I looked like a culprit because that boy told the pair 'Kakak nie yang duduk kat seat saya'. But it is okay, I waved my hand to them as I am sorry and move to seat F5, to where I don't belong.

I am partly lucky in ironic way. I don't look like alone, at last. :)

Perturbance

Salam. Last night I watch Mr Popper and Penguins. Best giler! (transformer 3, is not my cup of tea). There is a character in this movie that tend to have words that start with P in her every sentences. Cool isn't she? Her name is Poppy. Her boss' name is Mr Popper and her boss has pet, which is Penguin. So please watch Mr Popper. Jim Carrey is as hillarious as he was during The Mask times. And I watch Sekali Lagi. Again, this movie is really nice. I know now why Shaheizy Sam is heartthrob of many girls. I am supposedly working. Err. Bye bye.

Ribbon

Salam.

When I have something that bother my mind too much, often times I will run away from it. Stupid as it sounds, coward as I may seem. And worst part is, that doesn't bring me any peace. But it is okay, let see how tomorrow treat me. Some prayer please.

I am too emotional tonight, I thank you Allah for awarding me family and friends that define these two words perfectly. Alhamdulillah. I am flawed and all, but come to think of everything that I have (health and support are what I meant) now, I can only be grateful for everything, the least and the most that I can do.

Allow me to rant a bit about my mundane life. I start my day just like all of you, dark pitch in the morning (exaggerated) and have my breakfast with my housemates before being chaffeured to our office (read : train). Everyday, before we got our internet connection which is before yesterday, we spent times unnecessarily hanging around just for killing time and for some little proof of having a livelier life. We are in denial, we know that we are too much rely on virtual life, and yet still we (I) are smirking about some other people that dependent on internet as well.

On weekends, roomate and I hit the gym, we have made a deal to not abandoned our poor unloved sportswear.Plus, good exercise helps in reducing stress. It is so true that working and stress are growing parallel. I haven't found any park that is comfy for jog or run. Suggestion please?

And I can't wait for this weekend, start with a meet up with mother and follow by a little reunion with civillianz girls. I miss mother, we have been under 'silent treatment' for so long. I know she misses me that she insist to meet me by asking my sister to tell me and set the time, not directly telling me. Sweet right?hehe

May tomorrow treat us all well. 

Salam.

Floral

Salam.
How are you doing? I am okay, but quite sleepy. Since I miss to write so much, so here I am. I went to Singapore, with a bunch of awesome people, so our trip turn out to be so memorable. So with good crowd, a trip always worth.

I want to write something beneficial, so just let me rant something that maybe or maybe not benefits you.

1. If you love someone, please show to them.Crap.

2. A pair of shoe always not enough for a woman. So do shop shoes.

Okay okay please don't count everything I said. Good night everyone :)

Crush

Salam.
It is okay to have a crush even after you attached to someone called gf or bf, for me. My reason is having a crush is like adoring a Ferrari for me. I know I will never own a Ferrari as my daily car, so I'll save that in my dream. People said we can always dream right? So having crush is allowable after all. As that allowed girls to have our own preference and be firm with it.

That's all I guess. I miss you all.:)

Friday and I am on hols

Salam :)

I only have 5 minutes to update my blog. I miss my blog, miss decent internet connection and it has been so long I didn't get myself updated with my friends.

 I am basically learning to make my new life as interesting as possible. I heard to much complaining about working, and I don't want to be like that because I know there are too many people who is living their life harder than us. So need not to whine much. *positive note to myself.

I met Weda, long lost sister from civillianz. More meet up to come ok babe! =D
And later I want to meet all other KL clan. Count me in  in every activities you guys plan please.hehe

Okay, till we meet again. Bye.

Untold

Salam.

Now I know the feeling when they said they have nothing to write. Basically a lot of things had happened lately, but to gather that into pieces of writing is quite hard. So the story left untold.


Until we meet again.

Survivor

Salam.

Apart from blessed with wonderful friends, I am also awarded with one of the coolest lecturer as my supervisor. What have I done before that I am granted with all this undeserved gift? Thank you Allah.

Civillianz must be familiar with AP Mus, so I met him to bid farewell and a little bit of re-arrangement for my schedule. He is as usual, warm and pleasant. With all the chaotic of unpack, pack, filling the form and whatnot, I am really in need to hear those soothing and motivating words. Upon my preparation for facing new phase of life, he had preaching about something that I think would be great to be shared here. Among them are :

• Saving for your children education. AP Mus had sent all his children in private school, because he want to give the best for his children's education. Not to say that public school is not good enough, but if you can afford to give the best, why not? Don't put high hope on earning scholarship or sponsorship, because life is unpredictable.
• Must be ahead of time. If your boss set the deadline to be on Monday the next week, get your task done on Friday instead, so we are all prepared for amendment.
• Don't study the thing that you don't know at office, do your work at office and study at home. First because colleagues may find you less convincing. Second, you may seem unprepared. 
• Ask for the things that you don't know, but don't be clingy.
• Do not overspend. Live in humble, sacrifice for future days.
• Reading and gaining knowledge is all time learning process, in whatever we do, don't stop learning. 

Dr. Narayanan, which the lecturer that I had been working with last semester, remind me to not put a stop on what I have started, so yeah, will be progressing as part time student after this.  But for now, I may need to settle down with a few things and take a break.

I want to write; on how people surround me being so awesome, on my sister entering college, on what my brother did that make me so touched, on silly jokes that my father told me, on teasing your partner lesson by my parents, on how I am not so healthy that I thought I was, on how happy I am to hear that Rose now is running, on impatient of me to have Rose and Aida and Dya also been called by Mr P  so we can hang out together, on how I am going to miss Farha , Adha, Daa, Piah, Siti and housemates, on how we should not stop hoping and pray for everybody, on how envy I am to see the sweetness of H in Oh Well treating Oh Well hehe, on how excited I am to be tourist again with Nita and Kamil very soon,
on how we should always being positive so that we can face anything that come no matter what, on how hard reality will hit us but temporary it is, on every simple things.

So until we meet again.

Bye bye and take care. :)