Salam.
Finally, I feel like I am in control of my life again.
It started with a random conversation between my colleagues and I and the topic cornered to me, on subject that I dreaded most. Surprising enough, I was not mad. It was a good joke if I was not mad but that was not the reason I was not mad at that time. I laughed it off together and carefully, before I answered, (because the fun part of making a subject in a conversation is all about that subject’s response right?), my brain was silently agreed with the comment.
I answered well, (I think), that joke remained as good entertainment for others, we dismissed and while for me, on top of it, I found something like revelation (?), something like I can handle this, we can change if we want to.
So here I am, and that was such a good reminder, clean slate for me to start new, or to improve before things could get worse or before I am left with nothing that I can change of, before I am helpless and while I am able and in control of my life.
It is funny I got motivated over random talks, but this time I won’t let it be in vain. I don’t know, most of my surrounding are inspiring in their own ways albeit nobody perfect but who am I to highlight others’ flaws?
I guess, in my past, I spent too much time looking on others’ fault, ogling and highlighting their mistakes, keep forgetting that I am a humanbeing that full of mistakes too. Now, I (kind of) vow, I will try to look at the bright side, always, on life and people. Hopefully istiqomah lah.
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