Bittersweet

Salam.

If there is one good thing I gain about 2020, is to stop being curious on why things happened. I used to classify most of events that happened to either me or my family or my friends, under a few categories. The naive me playing God last time had concluded that this event is due to these person needs some reminder in his or her life, that event maybe bad karma because he or she did something nasty, another event maybe because he did good and he got rewarded and these ‘sin/punishment/reward profiling’ applies to me too. I was always curious on the reasoning behind everyhing, especially if I did fall into circumstances that I did not favour, against my will. Almost instantly, I classified that as punishment to me. 

Thanks to 2020, I think I had spent my money and time on a few good books and I had learned that everyone is bound to have things happen in their life,  be it favourable or not favourable. No escape to the emotional roller coaster, at some point everyone just had to endure it in their life. I no longer curious on why things happen, since I kind of figured out the basic rule that everyone will be tested. The timing and form might differ, but these events, trials, tribulations are bound to happen. The mystery behind the occurence, safe to say now that it is for the best, a taste in life that I need to experience to make me better, no less. 

I really really really hope 2021 will be a lot better than 2020. Hope everyone is safe and take care! 🙃