A Quarter of Quotient

 Salam.

I have been running again and it is day 35 today. I did 5km every morning and slowly I can feel my body has improved, especially on my heart rate. I was hesitant to buy smart watch before because I think it is too expensive and high likely that it will be underutilized. However, I had underestimated the effect that it had on me, in which the mere existence of it does encourage me to wake up earlier every morning, to run before work and especially to monitor my heart rate. 

I did not manage to complete my second book in February, and I am currently reading Thinking, Fast and Slow. I like this book so much despite I am only at Chapter 4 now. Can’t wait to have all the conclusions wrapped and learn from this book. 

My eldest nephew is 5-year-old this year. I noticed he is currently on that phase of learning to apologize now. It amazed me how God created humanbeing and tailor the traits and complexity of emotion in us,  even 5 year-old-kid is able to identify the situation that prompt them to apologize, and because of their naivety and innocence, the apologies uttered. On the other hand, for adult like us, apologies are mostly left unsaid, because upholding the ego and pride in us is so much more important than protecting others’ fragile heart. 

Next question is, why do people are wounded from others’ actions or words? Aren’t we smart enough not to rely on others to make us happy and independent enough to mend our own broken hearts? After all, we are creature that need to make peace with the fact that being alone is the constant premises, either in a space full of people or in a house full with family members or in dormitory full of strangers while travelling. 

I just happen to know that in taekwando, among the tenets of it are courtesy and self-control, which I reckoned the last trait I would associate myself with if I am about to fight with people. Because it matters too, the impact of our action to the opponent or other party, because in Emotional Intelligence (EQ), to protect others’ feeling or morale from our action and words is equally important as to protect our own. But, we (I) focus more on protecting my hearts and energy, unknowingly, we utter words or did rash actions in the name of protecting our heart but yet the other parties are severely impacted by our action. 

There is a quote I found interesting from a doctor to a kid patient, that was born without empathy feeling in her. This kid tends to create a tricky situation to win everytime, win against her brother as well as attention from her parent, to the extent that she even attempted to kill her little brother, because she enjoys winning, the feeling of it. The quote from the doctor more or less sounds like this, ‘You know what is greater than winning? Winning and not making others feel like losing’. 

I am late. Bye!