Guilt Relief

 Salam. 

I have been meaning to write in here since last two weeks, but only managed to do that now. As cliche as it sounds, time flies and we are approaching 2022 in couple of weeks. World has let me down to a new low in 2020 and 2021 and I am not as optimistic as I used to be. Writing this and reading it, I may appear to be ungrateful. Let me clarify, it was world that let me down, not my God, my God will never let me down. 

But I can’t help from being hopeful at 2022. Isn’t that the whole purpose of having new year? It is like a hard stop to a passage of time, a great reminder to not overthink about the past and the obvious certainty that life must go on. 

‘Life must go on’. 

I know someone that despised the optimist, particularly because of the timing that optimist acted optimistic. It is totally unapt to utter ‘life must go on’ at certain specific moments, example when someone extremely sad, frustrated, in anger. Brushing off the attempt of affected person to confront his or her conflict and to skip the process altogether due to awkwardness in the situation is a selfish act. I was the unsolicited optimist that acted optimistic then. And I am also the one that loathe out-of-place optimist now. 

I guess 5 seconds of silence to think about what to say can make a big difference.