Libre

 Salam. 

My writing when I was unable to sleep :-

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It was pitch black. Still, it was about sleep that was reluctant to come albeit the herbal tea.

New day come. Same routine but different minutiae every day. I wonder when will be the time I would enjoy my morning like TV commercial depicted, eyes closed and arms stretch to the sky and sideways with wide grin followed by small jump from the bed to kick start the day. It is always me dragging my feet with my eyes shut and hands searching for water from my bedside table.

I believe there are seasons in life and at the moment, I am at the better state than I was in couple of years ago, I am at Rabbi Inni Lima Anzalta Ilayya Min Khayrin Faqir state. Few years ago I was at the lowest phase where I questioned everything that happened to me as much as I complained why am  I not granted everything that I prayed or wished for. 

The season, impacted how I curated my reading list. I am not sure if it is directly caused by the maturity level but my preferred books at the moment is about faith, finding meaning in life and answering my curiosity at specific subject such as how brain works, why exercise is important and myths that needed to be debunked. 

Of late, I find certain things are trivial and sort of wasting my time and energy and I detached myself from that. I felt better and liberated because I can focus doing things that are more rewarding.