Exclusive Right

Salam.

I remember being like this long time ago, a night when it feels warm from usual which doesn't welcome sleep to come and I end up tapping the keyboard. I know I don't have any idea on what to write but still I am doing this. I announce to people that I bought handbag in the previous entry and now, I told to the people again that I can't sleep, see what a boring blog now this Bittersweetfly become. Not that this space was interesting before.Hahha.Two cup of coffee down for today and blame the remaining caffeine in my system that this rant exist.

Homesick.

On staying true to myself, there is a lot prententious statement that I have made. Deep inside I am very clear on who is my idol, what kind of employee I would become in the future, what color of my tile would dominate my future house and what are mundane activities that I have planned to go through once I am officially out from this convergence and freely decide upon my life. But to explain that required a lot of thinking as well as balancing some self-reservation on the planning so that when my planning doesn't turn out nicely, I still can stand straight and go on with the flow, well-prepared.

On stay grounded, I am very swayed which is often mistaken by my judgment as considerate. I thought I am being considerate to the fate, but truth is I am not holding strong on my principals and that, cause a lot more trouble at the coming days. Like, I am needed at place A in 10 minutes and when I am on my way, something at place B caught my attention and I, in halt turn to place B because I thought that distraction wont take long  which is clearly wrong and when I reached place A after a good 20 minutes, I missed the event.

Let say the event is a flower bloom in every 100 years and now I missed it, there is no way I can wait for another 100 years. (Did you remember this movie?  which introduce me to the existence of this once-in-100-year-blooming flower.)

As now I know that I am swayed, I need to stand strong with my principals. But still up to suggestion.  Provided after a critical verdict.  

• So when people told me to get a life by forgetting the obligations, I know what to answer.
• So when people suggest me to get involve with something I know I don't belong, I know how to politely refuse.
• So when people persuade me to buy anything, I know I own the exclusive right to select the best options.
• So when people attempt to make my life more lively by adding characters in it, I know at what depth should the relationship stays so that I won't be so deeply involved.

Guess that I need to stop now. And I hope all of you won't be as weak as me in fighting for your rights and pursuit of your happiness. 

Bye bye and take care.