Salam.
I was tested positive for COVID-19 on Friday, 21 October 2022.
It is almost ideal that my COVID-19 symptoms were not mild and the book that I was reading at the moment is Veronika Decides to Die by Paulo Coelho, suggested by a dear friend.
First, I thought that death was possible at this current window given the circumstance, not that I think I am exempted from it, but not this soon. Up till now, I am still in denial that any age will always be too sudden for death.
Secondly, tested positive with COVID-19 was a good break because I felt that I have been living my day to day life not having any space to reflect on the life overall picture. I have been so overwhelmed with mundane things because everythings seems relevant and need to be taken care of there and then. All the things I am accountable and responsible for. Letting them slipping off my fingers will only reeks irresponsibilities and I don’t want that. COVID-19 came and the symptoms left me no choice, something seems tightened my temple making my eye hurt when staring at the screen and the accompanied headache was no joke. I lost my voice, I sounded like those voice after inhaling helium except that that helium doesn’t come with prickly sensation upon swallow. I was shivering, in sweater and socks, so I slept for every chance I got. I was able to sleep without guilt thanks to all understanding people (and cough syrup).
I think all surrounding people are understanding and forgiving but most of us can’t help from feeling guilty, guilty of being sick in my case.
I felt better on day 3, at least I can use my eyes for reading. So I continued reading Veronika Decides to Die. Don’t want to be a party pooper and spill any spoilers but reading a book about death never fail to make me feel more alive. I am relieved that death did not come at this juncture. However, apologies seem appropriate. Nothing specific just precautious, so I would to like say sorry if I did any harm.
Can’t wait to be back on my feet and enjoy life again.
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