Perplex

Salam.

I wonder whether I look normal now. Unlike you (or just like you), I am easily intimidated by perception of others. 

I am now sitting alone at a fast food restaurant (M) waiting for departure time and quite enjoy  the moment. Being in the crowd makes me realize about two things, either how lonely are we being in the crowd alone, or how comfortable are we being in the crowd alone. 

For me? It depends. If the crowd is consist of someone that I know, I will feel slightly uncomfortable, the need to greet, smile, making eye contact/avoiding eye contact, not putting on the resting bitch face and being behave. 

And vice versa. If the crowd is unknown to me, I am very comfortable because for safety reason, I know that I am not alone and not having the need to mind my act and behave. 

My balik kampung this time is to celebrate my little brother's wedding. I wish all good things for his marriage. I am so lucky to have him as my little brother. Since he is married now, I wonder whether it is still appropriate for me to send my car to him everytime the service date is due.