So They Said.

WOW. I don't remember I did write this. This was in 2012, when I am still having difficulty coping with my new life.

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I don't know if I'm doing this right.

In 2012, my working period seems extended until night. Going back at 9pm and have dinner at 10pm, whilst lunch at pantry for 15 minutes. Breakfast at 7.15am with toasted bread and coffee, maybe 8 minutes?

Got to really sit on my own chair at 5pm today and day before, and day before and day before.

Parents were in KL these last two days and I, one bad daughter that didn't spare even a minute to meet them. Received their call, sense their longiness to meet their own daughter and, notice their frustration, and I cried inside.

Now, praying hard to still get their blessing.

Last minute cancellation on holiday trip because of this. Too tired already to cry again. Apology maybe unaccepted, bitter may grow already. I am sorry, really am. It was rare for me to cancel on a very last minute. I usually don't made the promise if I can't make it at the first place. I hate those who always back off, and now, I am the one doing that.

Letting people surrounds down a bit too much lately. It was not like I am given the privillage to choose. People said life is about choice, I wonder now what choice left.

I am trying to not complain. I keep my fingers away from updating twitter when I am about to crumpled. I go to the loo instead, and do my business. I am one shower sobber. So in office, I am one loo-sobber.I am complaining already by now.

Will be at tower again tomorrow, and doing mundane. Tomorrow is off day.

This post sounds pathetic right? I hate to use pathetic word, because 'pathetic' is too heavy and rude to be used in every occasion. But, now I am doing it. I am breaking every rules now.

Sincerely,

Tired and Exhausted.